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AMEN^ it’s something that other people say it but when the people you’d expect to understand you and support you says it, it just breaks my heart everytime :( especially when it’s the people you’re always around with.. my family always give me the look, the kind of look you’d see people give a criminal, a rapist, a murderer, they always look at me that way whenever i try to say and explain to them that i want to lose weight to be healthy because my health right now is not something you’d want for yourself. Yeah, that disgusted face look. But thats not the reason why my soul breaks.. it’s not the disgusted face look on.. its what they say and what they do.. my mom especially, for all of people i thought would understand me shes the one who most hurtfully judged me. im only 17 and i’ve had insomia since i was 8, when i was 11 i started eating coffee like hell and drinking strong coffees atleast 25 times a day and that still continues on until today. I eat by emotions, when my feelings are to tense(like when i get on a fight with my mom) i eat a lot until i drown all the feelings inside so that i will not cry. I am not best at explaining what emotions are to other people so i keep it all inside. I’m trying to change my ways but its very difficult when youve been doing it for years.. i have a serious health, mental, emotional problem, and no one knows .. you see im a great pretender im always happy and cheering people up, when inside im becoming my own enemy. good thing from all those years ive been pretending i pickd up the positivity outlook. Now, i’m trying to be lose weight to be healthy. because for me it’s a big step to change from who i was to who i really am. Im much better that i see myself. Im doing this for me.
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